Starting For Real

So I started my new job Monday (at the American Heart Association), and today is Tuesday. I have worked there for two whole days. They have been the two best days of work I have ever had in my career LIFE. The one good thing I can say about my oppressing/ demeaning old job is that it has instilled an appreciation for a good job like nothing else could have.

I finally feel like I am doing what I am meant to do. This is the type of place where I can excel because of my natural talents. I can definitely say that my new co-worker are absolutely incredible. I love the event I am a part of planning, and I love love love having my own office! 

My goal is to work hard, learn as much as can, exceed my expectations, and be a hugely valuable asset to the American Heart Association.

Oh, did I say how much I love my new job? Because, I love it a bunch!

August To Do List

I am making a list of thing that I should accomplish in the month of August. Some things are silly, some are not. I shall mark them off as I complete them. So hopefully putting them up on my blog with motivate to actually do them. (fingers crossed)

1. Start new job at American Heart Association
2. Get caught up on student loan payment
3. Buy a Laptop (Acer-Red)
4. Call my mother
5. Workout at Gym 2x a week
6. Get new Bosses gift
7. Buy a new pair of black slacks for new job
8. Buy a new pair of dress shoes for new job
9. Give Raj (co-worker at Hertz) a gift
10. Re-connect with old friends
11. Write Sarah Keener and Kim Cherry a letter of gratitude 
12. Paint a metallic red picture
13. Paint a Picture for Mahaya
14. Blog once a week
15. Finish current book and start a new one

The Dog Days Are Over!

Hallelujah!

I got a new job!
At a non-profit!
With my own office!

Yes, indeedy! The dogs days are finally over! I could not be more happy! Exclamation point exclamation point

The American Heart Association is my savior! My hero! My refuge! My new place of employment.

I am so HAPPY!

July has been kind. August is going to be a new beginning, and I have big plans for this new start!

Finally a normal hour job! No more working the weekends! A new day has come!

Dreams #Trust30

Write down your top three dreams. Now write down what’s holding you back from them.

1. Working at a Non-Profit
2. Being a comedian
3. Make a Difference

What hold me back, is experience, commitment, money, and courage.

Weird Things I Judge People For. (Even though I Don't Judge)

Good Things

• If you drink Pepsi (Mt Dew) over Coke
• If you like Roseanne
• If you think Chelsea Handler is funny
• If you believe Hillary Clinton is awesome and has the answers to all this counties issues  
• Knowing that racism is still every evident in today's society and you recognize the difficulties of be black or another marginalized culture
• Laughing often
• Loving me

Bad Things

• Being consistently negative
• Letting you dog/pets touch me
• Not being open to suggestion
• Thinking that black people get special treatment for being black

My Family Reunion

This weekend was .. my family reunion ..

Okay, okay. I am not much of a family person, well I mean I am not much for my family. I love other peoples family.

to be continued...

Fear #Trust30

Is fear holding you back from living your fullest life and being truly self expressed? Put yourself in the shoes of the you who’s already lived your dream and write out the answers to the following:
 Is the insecurity you’re defending worth the dream you’ll never realize? or the love you’ll never venture? or the joy you’ll never feel?
 Will the blunder matter in 10 years? Or 10 weeks? Or 10 days? Or 10 minutes?
 Can you be happy being anything less than who you really are?
 Now Do. The Thing. You Fear.

I am a victim to my own fears. I know I should know better but, facing your own fears alone is not always fun or easy. And, to just be honest I very much enjoy fun and easy. In fact I very much prefer fun and easy.

I am definitely a person who suffers from the need of approval. As shocking as it may sounds. Yes, I care what people think (for the most part). I love to be loved.

It is that need for acceptance that keeps me form 'stepping out of the box' I guess.

Glen Evans a work in progress.

At the moment I can deal with this. I am use to this.

Alternative Paths #Trust30

The world buzzes about goals and visions. Focus. Create a vivid picture of exactly where you want to go. Dream big, then don’t let anything or anyone stop you. The problem, as Daniel Gilbert wrote in Stumbling Upon Happiness, is that we’re horrible at forecasting how we’ll really feel 10 or 20 years from now – once we’ve gotten what we dreamed of. Often, we get there only to say, “That’s not what I thought it would be,” and ask, “What now?” Ambition is good. Blind ambition is not. It blocks out not only distraction, but the many opportunities that might take you off course but that may also lead you in a new direction. Consistent daily action is only a virtue when bundled with a willingness to remain open to the unknown. In this exercise, look at your current quest and ask, “What alternative opportunities, interpretations and paths am I not seeing?” They’re always there, but you’ve got to choose to see them.

Before I just write IDK, I Think that the alternative opportunities I'm not seeing must involve money. I have none. Sad day me.

The prompt was beautiful, unfortunately my creative mind can not form any other interpretations at this moment. Though, I do long to be on of path that I can enrich other lives with my kindness, and one day soon be working at either a food bank, or a youth services organization.

"Kindness move mountains" - Dianna Agron

Afraid to Do #Trust30

Emerson says: “Always do what you are afraid to do.” What is ‘too scary’ to write about? Try doing it now.

My first reaction to todays prompt was "Thanks, but no thanks."

This is a super hard one for me! Below is a list of things that I am considering writing about.

• To die.
• To fail.
• Being unpopular.
• To move.

Five Years #Trust30

What would you say to the person you were five years ago? What will you say to the person you’ll be in five years?

Five years ago I was getting ready to start my freshman year of college! Probably the most drunken dramatic 4 years of my life.
First I would tell myself (me) that during my junior year over spring break don't get that PI. Because a lot of people will talk a lot of crap about you. It totally sucks.
Also, I would tell myself to take better care of my car(s), because if you don't you will go through 5 by time you graduate college, and Grandpa is will not be happy about it.
I would say be kind to everyone, and don't get mad at your friends (and don't do things that will make them mad at you). And to the best of your ability don't make any enemies. It is not worth it.
Oh, and you should probably minor in psychology, because you will have a better chance at getting a job (that I want).
And whatever you do do not miss Kensie's wedding, for the love of God do not miss Kensie's wedding. You have no idea how much you will regret it.
Work out more. (Or at least just work out some)
Take as many graphic design classes as possible (they are the future), and volunteer at DHS.
Study harder, and don't be lazy.
Always remember you only live once.
Oh, and if you ever feel the need to dye your hair brown, don't, I repeat DON'T. It will most likely turn out red(ish) and it will look horrible, and the school news paper will put a picture of you on the cover, and you want to die. Blond is beautiful and awesome and it fits you.

As for I would say to myself five years from now .. well I only have questions.
Like umm .. Do I ever get my dream job? And, Have I committed suicide yet, yes or no?
Probably would ask if I am happy, and if ABC brought back All My Children?
Also is Hillary Clinton President yet?

#TeamHillary

Dare To Be Bold #Trust30

A child has no trouble believing the unbelievable, nor does the genius or the madman. Its only you and I, with our big brains and our tiny hearts, who doubt and over think and hesitate.” - Steven Pressfield, Do the Work

 The idea of “being realistic” holds all of us back. From starting a business or quitting a job to dating someone who may not be our type or moving to a new place – getting “real” often means putting your dreams on hold.

 Today, let’s take a step away from rational thought and dare to be bold. What’s one thing you’ve always wanted to accomplish but have been afraid to pursue? Write it down. Also write down the obstacles in your way of reaching your goal. Finally, write down a tangible plan to overcome each obstacle.

The only thing left is to, you know, actually go make it happen. What are you waiting for?


One thing I really want to do is be a Comedian. I Think I am hilarious. My wittiness is common knowledge amongst my friends people. I had a terrible childhood, I come from a poor family, my parents have both been incarcerated for drugs, and I was a ward of the state, so I lived with my grandparents for most of my life. Obviously all the factor that would contribute to a person becoming a very famous and celebrated comedy genius are there. 
 
Hmm... on to the 'To Do' list ... where to start?

1. write a show. 
2. locate local comedy club.
3. practice, practice, practice.
4. have a couple shots. (tequila)
5. Be funny!  funnier.
6. sign up for armature night at local comedy club.
7. get discover.
8. become famous.
9. get own talk show.

That is all I can think to do at the moment. Probably why I haven't done it yet. Gosh I wish I had something more moving (inspirational and heartwarming). I mean I am extremely passionate about helping people overcome poverty, and working to end world hunger. So being an activist for those causes probably are more noble, but I choose comedy, because as a famous comedian I would have more influence over the latter. (big picture, people that what I'm looking at)

*I wonder what the author of this prompt would think if he read my post.

Come Alive #Trust30

If you had one week left to live, would you still be doing what you’re doing now? In what areas of your life are you preparing to live? Take them off your To Do list and add them to a To Stop list. Resolve to only do what makes you come alive.



Bonus: How can your goals improve the present and not keep you in a perpetual “always something better” spiral?
 
Firstly, If I only had a week left I obviously would change up my daily routine (and immediately quit my job). Although, now that I am thinking about it I am not really sure what I else I would do. So now I have to challenge myself to determine what does make me come alive. Being around my friends is definitely up there, drinking, laughing and making others laugh, and planning parties/events. I love me a good party. Watching the whole thing come together, and witnessing everyone have a great time because I helped organize an environment in which people actually enjoy themselves. To that is wonderful.
 
But, I don't think I would want to spend my last week alive planning a party for all my friends, although maybe I would. Because to be honest (sadly) I do tend to like things more when I do them, and when they are about me. 
 
This doesn't really seem to be sounding like a way for me to discover a new way of living. I think the only thing it has made me realize is that I actually do really enjoy planning events, because prior to this post I had convinced myself that that part of me was over. I guess it really isn't. I have a surge of creative energy rushing through me now as I type.
 
So that's cool. 

Farewell To The Rut

Rut:

1. An uncomfortable situation or place, of which there is no easy way out.
2. A low point in one's life. It can be boring, sad, or frustrating.

Looking back at this last year I would say that I have definitely been in a rut, the ruttiest of ruts. But, I am turning over a new leaf. I must say that I am embarrassed and ashamed of who I have let myself become. How I was acting is not even who I am. I have been so negative and unhappy, and that is just not me.

I really felt that I was in such a low point in my life mostly because I don't have the job I want, and it frustrating to the point of tears. But, I am tired of being that depressed, sad person. I like being happy. I miss being happy.  

I have been talking some big initiatives like volunteering a the American Heart Association doing their social media and media impression. I absolutely love being there a bazillion times more then being at my real  other job. I just know there is another non-profit out there just waiting to hire me.

Just to update I am doing a superb job on keeping up with my current set of goals. And, am happy to say that I have ever intention of keeping it that way.

Also, I am becoming more and more savvy about Twitter and I am loving it. It is amazing to me when someone I don't know follows me and tweets me. I find it incredible, and I love it. Mostly because I love meeting new people and learning about them, and it is a whole new window into the lives of others.

So, goodbye rut of my life. I will not longer play prisoner to you. I am liberating myself away from self-pity and self-loathing. I love me. (smileyface)

#Trust30

#Trust30 is an online initiative and 30-day writing challenge that encourages you to look within and trust yourself. Use this as an opportunity to reflect on your now, and to create direction for your future. 30 prompts from inspiring thought-leaders will guide you on your writing journey. 

June 4, 2011
Not everyone wants to travel the world, but most people can identify at least one place in the world they’d like to visit before they die. Where is that place for you, and what will you do to make sure you get there?
"Travel"

Well, this is such an easy prompt for me today. Besides living on the beach coast of Georgia, the one other place I dream of being in is the UK. I really don't have any preference on what part, I just know I love UK. I love the X Factor, I love Cheryl Cole, Joe McElderry, Cher Lloyd, and many, many others.

I love the way people talk, I love their humor, and I know that I would be accepted with open arms in their country. But, I am so un-talented that I can't even do a British accent, and I desperately wish I could. I think if I lived their then I could develop one naturally like Madonna.

June 3, 2011
Identify one of your biggest challenges at the moment (ie I don’t feel passionate about my work) and turn it into a question (ie How can I do work I’m passionate about?) Write it on a post-it and put it up on your bathroom mirror or the back of your front door. After 48-hours, journal what answers came up for you and be sure to evaluate them.
"Post-It"

My Post-It say "I am ready to find a job w/meaning - Glenner"

June 2, 2011
The world is powered by passionate people, powerful ideas, and fearless action. What’s one strong belief you possess that isn’t shared by your closest friends or family? What inspires this belief, and what have you done to actively live it?
"One Strong Belief "

Aside from poverty and hunger, one of my greatest passions in life is watching the TV show Roseanne. I love it. I always have, and I always will. I find that most of the problems I face in my life can be related to just about any and every episode of Roseanne. I have found myself many times getting so emotionally involved that I end up in tears (or laughing so loud that I disturb the neighbors).

One Episode that always gets me is the one where both Roseanne and Dan are working so much (common is a low-income homes) that they rely on Becky and Darleen to take care of the house and their younger brother DJ. Toward the end of the episode Roseanne is telling DJ to go to bed and he is acting kind of sad so she ask what's wrong and he just shakes his head, so she asked again to which he replies "I haven't said anything in two day".

It really is an incredible and revolutionary show. Lucky for me and all of America that all 9 seasons are available on Netflix for easy viewing. I try to share this passion with as many people that I can, because not only is it hilarious, but also brings meaning and appreciation to the challenges that so many low-income families face.

So if you get a chance, you should definitely watch. I would if I were you.

 June 1, 2011
If ‘the voyage of the best ship is a zigzag line of a hundred tacks,’ then it is more genuine to be present today than to recount yesterdays. How would you describe today using only one sentence? 
"Today"

Today is June, and it is new and full of hope.

May 31, 2011
You just discovered you have fifteen minutes to live.

1. Set a timer for fifteen minutes.
2. Write the story that has to be written
"15 Minutes To Live"
Coming Soon...

June, June is #winning

So I have made a conscious decision that (thanks in part to @samdavidson http://samdavidson.net/) June is going to be the month that I (once again, but for real this time) get my life in order, proper order, successful order.

May as you know was horrific, a complete failure of a month (at least for me). But, It seems like many months leading up to May were not that great either, just that May was so bad I wanted to be institutionalized.

But June, June has so many things going for it! I have made a list of goals that are specifically for the month of June. I might add that I am very serious about staying committed and achieving my goal this month. I'm excited!

Goals for JUNE!

1. Gym 3x a week
2. $ave-$ave-$ave! (money)
3. Blog once a week (at least)
4. Get a new job, one with meaning
5. Stay in (as in away from the bar)

I thought it would be wise to keep it simple and not expect to much. If I can stick to these then that is a huge improvement form my past behavior.

Also I just joined a challenge called #Trust30 on twitter. I am suppose to write something everyday. But I thinking I am just going to use my twitter account @glen_evans for this challenge, but we will see.

Fresh start! (hurray me!)

Also, I just wanted to add my latest obsession Ally McBeal. Thank you Netfilx. It is funny because I actually remember watching every episode. As a child she inspired me to become a lawyer, I didn't follow through on it, but that's obviously no surprise to anyone following my blog.

May=Fail Month

May=Fail Month


Well. May wow what a sucky month. I can honestly say that I have never been more happy to see a month end (except maybe months with snow).


I have been in a total state of depression, and I have no idea why - well aside from having a lame job that destroys my soul, I have been unpleasantly drunk one to many times resulting in drunken cry-fests (not proud), I am losing interest in being around people (I love being around people), I talk to my friends less and less, I stopped going to the gym, I am poor, and I know I haven’t hit bottom, but I feel like I have.

Other notable truths of the month:



1.Told my mom can not have relationship with her.

2.Paid $573.00 for car insurance this month so I am poor.

3.Car window was cracked/busted in hail storm.

4.glee ended.

5.My job is getting worse.

6.It got hott outside.

7.People have been ignoring me (so it feels like).

8.Other people have more than I do.

9.I started a low carb diet.

10.I quit a low carb diet.

11.I feel less nice everyday.

I am so ready for June.

Also I have done nothing to keep me accountable to previous posts. I suck. Poor poor pitiful me. (cryface) 

New and Continuing Obsessions!

Some have said that I tend to obsess over things i.e. people, songs, foods, shows, gossip, products, anything really. Once I decide I like something .. I really like it! And because I need everyone else to feel the same way I take it upon myself to educate my friends on how incredible current obsession is. (I believe they should appreciate current obsession as equally as I, and I am offended and appalled if they do not share my feelings).

There are many people I love and who inspire me! numero uno Kelly Ripa! She shall be mine and I hers. Other notables obsessions include Lisa Ling, Britney, Bruno Mars, Anderson Cooper, Roseanne, Golden Girls, I Love Lucy, Macy's, David Archuleta, Harry Potter, Vodka, Wine, Italian food, Natalie Portman, facebook, Renee Zellweger, and many, many others.

But today I want to share a little piece of gold that I have discovered! Sam Tsui! That is right, I am sure you well know who he is. The YouTube superstar! (Of course, I have a youtube.com obsession as well). But even with my vast knowledge of current issues and popular trends, this mega-star in the making has slip right thru the crack of my very keen sense of knowing all things great!

Now this kid is truly, and I stress truly something special! Not only does he attend Yale University, he radiates with kindness and talent. Two things I know very much about! because as you may or may not know I am extremely kind and I am quick to recognise it in others, and although I have yet to discover my (surely hidden) talent I to have a gift for seeing it in others, as well. And This Sam Tsui is talented and heading down a path of success! (with his friend Kurt who produces for him, so we should also be very thankful to Kurt for sharing Sam with us) Thank you Kurt!

So if you are a normal person then it will be obvious to you once you watch his cover of Britney's new jam "Hold It Against Me" how amazing his kid is. So I high recommend that every individual of the human race watch his video and soon! And then after you watch said video you should go to RegisandKelly.com and watch their latest host chats because it is always a good time!

Back On Track (ish)

Well, I have realized that once again I have set out to start something (that I believe to incredibly inspiration and challenging i.e. this blog) and completely dropped the ball. Surprise surprise.



Well, I am changed! I just decided. So there, it is done. I am now a dedicated blogger once again. And this is going to be the first of many entries of "Glen's Unfortunate Life".



So, where was I? Where did I leave off .. Oh! right I was in a very unfortunate place (Tahlequah, OK, which I miss terribly). That is right, I moved! One Goal achieved! I believe it is very important to celebrate even the smallest of victories .. usually with a bottle of wine .. or bottle of tequila .. or bottle of vodka .. or a 20-pack (depending on the size of said victory, of course. Sometimes a shot will suffice) something special.

But make no mistake moving to Tulsa, OK is no small victory, it is a triumph of gigantic proportions. I beat the odds. The cards were stacked against me and I said "No! I will not be forced into mediocrity I will persevere!" And I have (kinda).



Hey it is hard stuff moving .. with absolutely no family or financial support (Don;t even get me stated with that). But congrats to me I did it! Hurray!



Now. Lets see back to those other Goals .. (Lets see how far I have made it)

• Get a new car! check! did it! holla! go me!
• Get a Job! Check! Wow no stopping me! ow ow!
• Go to the Gym! um, right (small failure) I shall take a shot to help me feel better about this tiny short coming.
• re-connect with old friends .. I have kinda tried but I definitely need to do better! another shot for motivation!

I believe that it is time for some new goals and some prioritizing .. first thing tomorrow!

So I am going to make it a priority to make some time to prioritize me new found priorities!