August To Do List

I am making a list of thing that I should accomplish in the month of August. Some things are silly, some are not. I shall mark them off as I complete them. So hopefully putting them up on my blog with motivate to actually do them. (fingers crossed)

1. Start new job at American Heart Association
2. Get caught up on student loan payment
3. Buy a Laptop (Acer-Red)
4. Call my mother
5. Workout at Gym 2x a week
6. Get new Bosses gift
7. Buy a new pair of black slacks for new job
8. Buy a new pair of dress shoes for new job
9. Give Raj (co-worker at Hertz) a gift
10. Re-connect with old friends
11. Write Sarah Keener and Kim Cherry a letter of gratitude 
12. Paint a metallic red picture
13. Paint a Picture for Mahaya
14. Blog once a week
15. Finish current book and start a new one

The Dog Days Are Over!

Hallelujah!

I got a new job!
At a non-profit!
With my own office!

Yes, indeedy! The dogs days are finally over! I could not be more happy! Exclamation point exclamation point

The American Heart Association is my savior! My hero! My refuge! My new place of employment.

I am so HAPPY!

July has been kind. August is going to be a new beginning, and I have big plans for this new start!

Finally a normal hour job! No more working the weekends! A new day has come!

Dreams #Trust30

Write down your top three dreams. Now write down what’s holding you back from them.

1. Working at a Non-Profit
2. Being a comedian
3. Make a Difference

What hold me back, is experience, commitment, money, and courage.

Weird Things I Judge People For. (Even though I Don't Judge)

Good Things

• If you drink Pepsi (Mt Dew) over Coke
• If you like Roseanne
• If you think Chelsea Handler is funny
• If you believe Hillary Clinton is awesome and has the answers to all this counties issues  
• Knowing that racism is still every evident in today's society and you recognize the difficulties of be black or another marginalized culture
• Laughing often
• Loving me

Bad Things

• Being consistently negative
• Letting you dog/pets touch me
• Not being open to suggestion
• Thinking that black people get special treatment for being black

My Family Reunion

This weekend was .. my family reunion ..

Okay, okay. I am not much of a family person, well I mean I am not much for my family. I love other peoples family.

to be continued...

Fear #Trust30

Is fear holding you back from living your fullest life and being truly self expressed? Put yourself in the shoes of the you who’s already lived your dream and write out the answers to the following:
 Is the insecurity you’re defending worth the dream you’ll never realize? or the love you’ll never venture? or the joy you’ll never feel?
 Will the blunder matter in 10 years? Or 10 weeks? Or 10 days? Or 10 minutes?
 Can you be happy being anything less than who you really are?
 Now Do. The Thing. You Fear.

I am a victim to my own fears. I know I should know better but, facing your own fears alone is not always fun or easy. And, to just be honest I very much enjoy fun and easy. In fact I very much prefer fun and easy.

I am definitely a person who suffers from the need of approval. As shocking as it may sounds. Yes, I care what people think (for the most part). I love to be loved.

It is that need for acceptance that keeps me form 'stepping out of the box' I guess.

Glen Evans a work in progress.

At the moment I can deal with this. I am use to this.

Alternative Paths #Trust30

The world buzzes about goals and visions. Focus. Create a vivid picture of exactly where you want to go. Dream big, then don’t let anything or anyone stop you. The problem, as Daniel Gilbert wrote in Stumbling Upon Happiness, is that we’re horrible at forecasting how we’ll really feel 10 or 20 years from now – once we’ve gotten what we dreamed of. Often, we get there only to say, “That’s not what I thought it would be,” and ask, “What now?” Ambition is good. Blind ambition is not. It blocks out not only distraction, but the many opportunities that might take you off course but that may also lead you in a new direction. Consistent daily action is only a virtue when bundled with a willingness to remain open to the unknown. In this exercise, look at your current quest and ask, “What alternative opportunities, interpretations and paths am I not seeing?” They’re always there, but you’ve got to choose to see them.

Before I just write IDK, I Think that the alternative opportunities I'm not seeing must involve money. I have none. Sad day me.

The prompt was beautiful, unfortunately my creative mind can not form any other interpretations at this moment. Though, I do long to be on of path that I can enrich other lives with my kindness, and one day soon be working at either a food bank, or a youth services organization.

"Kindness move mountains" - Dianna Agron